"She's not prepared to be governor. How can she be prepared to be vice president or president?" said Green, a Republican from Palin's hometown of Wasilla. "Look at what she's done to this state. What would she do to the nation?"
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Saturday, August 30, 2008
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A dedication
Saw this and it reminded me of an old friend lol... (those who know her will see the similarities) enjoy :D
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
Catharsis, finally :p
lol... yeah, that's how I have to start this. I am so incredibly happy with my life right now. I've come so far without the malice and strife in my life that various people have brought to me. I had thought for so long that my closest friend was so much like me... it was amazing how similar we were.. how much we had in common... the closeness I felt. Only to realize many years later that we weren't... we weren't alike at all.... just everything I was she was pretending to be! What incredible bullshit lol. To be so not a person yourself that you have to be like a lizard and to meld into the background of whatever you are close to.
I have been mourning for so long but I can with great assurance say it's over now :) My life is full.
It's amazing to look back and see how my very self was ripped apart for so long. Anything that could be done to build their self up. My interests, my likes... everything was taken. My illness's were never as bad... my aches, never as severe, my highs never quite high enough, my accomplishments truly meaningless when compared... hell, I wasn't even as evil as they were!
The very worst thing is the hurt they brought to my family. That's the very worst. Did they ever, apologize for their part in what happened? No. I won't go through life with blaming others though. I was the dumbass that opened myself to trusting. It's over. The scars are there but it's over. We have all moved on and have grown through it all. I should have known then but I have a big heart and hoped, hoped it was true.
They only had gotten worse though. Colder, harder, but more religious lol. I think that was the only way they could face what they had done.
So... why write this now? Well, I've had a lot of different "conclusions" I've wanted to write about the whole affair but kept wavering back and forth about how I felt. Therapy helps though and so does my husband. Friends don't hurt, especially true ones who aren't using you to feed off of.
I've learned so much since then. I've grown so much as a person. Sure, I still have plenty to sort out but then who doesn't. I have found so much good in this world. I have found the opposite too. It often disguises itself though and you have to remember to go with your gut feelings. Would I take it back and wish for a different conclusion? No. I have found great peace through everything I have learned. I hope they find peace someday too. Just far, far away from me :D
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